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Monday, September 29, 2025

writing is thinking; convenience is taking away your freedom; and boring is important



(style: personal perspectives and reflections)

Nowadays, people are promoting AI use for everything and every area. Initially, such concepts were appealing or at least fresh for me. Gradually, I increase usages of grammarly and then other AI writing tools (e.g. Bing's embedded earlier version co-pilot), to the point of probably over-reliant on chatGPT to write. To this point, I'm almost in fear that my writing and critical thinking will be eroded away by these AI tools. Let me put my perspectives into two sides: 1. AI for easing boring works, e.g. making timeline table and looking for abbreviations, I'm all for these; 2. AI to replace my own thinking process, here I'm not referring to humanity's AI crisis etc which is way above my head, I'm against it as if that's cyber laziness not use your muscle, and here importantly is your creative and logical "muscles".

With such concerns, I decide to write a series of personal journals, some in my own perspectives and some in technical or grantsmanship tones (more to come), in order to capture my own styles and probably most importantly keep practicing my own writing muscles in a flowed fashion. Regardless what (AI or outside cyber worlds), I still enjoy writing as a way to express my internal self and clarify what exactly I've been thinking through. 

Similarly, iphone is a trap and the so-called digital convenience in the end becoming energy suckers to human/my limited attentions in daily to evening hours, eventually resulting loss of freedom, which is when one wanders in trail with tall grasses around, watches geese flapping wings from a small pond, tells different subtle yet beautiful flowers, and drifts his mind from one daily subject to another remote memory. Such sweetness is irreplaceable by digital porn. 

Thursday, August 28, 2025

国内两个星期归来 它们都要我的精力

 


旅行是很好的,尤其是这样的探亲旅行,又无聊又放松又充满记忆的探寻。

我当然经历过很多旅行,从年轻到现在,觉得旅行都是给人一种uplifting 的感觉或者经历,可是一旦结束,就会很快的被suck into生活的繁琐和routine以及滑入各种慢慢的精力陷阱,比如游戏比如porn比如工作如同porn。这些东西就如同妖魔鬼怪一样需要你的精气和精力。

旅行如同让你上升到自我之外,去审视自己的生活,审视自己。仿佛自己是另外一个人一般。

但无论如何,似乎我对自由的渴求总是油然而生。

Saturday, June 28, 2025

周末两天两个小镇

 


开车绵延的路。移动的巨大的云的阴影。
两个镇。都是印第安人被抢夺的历史。
即使一切都成功了,我想要什么。顿时对很多工作丧失直接的兴趣,只有长期的自由目的。

mission statement 以摒除噪声(e.g. teacher-student);problems to be solved, not models come & go
很多人不需要我,我也不需要他们。
有最好的厨师,但是到处都有餐馆,什么样的职业不会消失。
以后记忆和认知和个性和经验全部可以被压缩注入到一个神经网络中
digital models, central <-> distributed, e.g. 3D Gaussian Splatting